I suppose part of my motivation and passion continues to come from the practices in my life that are watering me.....and not wanting to keep it to myself......but it is difficult to really impart that to another person, until they are ready to receive it.....but I cannot really say enough how much I feel meditation has helped me in my life as I have hunkered down into the practice.....it feeds me similarly to exercise......which by the way I have new things going on there to

I wrote the other day about feeling triggered, and did my video yesterday about it some....and it is interesting when you have trauma, and you get triggered....it is often not the thing that triggers you that is significant.....it is the feeling and wound that lies underneath....and for me the wound I have been able to identify that is the deepest for me is one of not being chosen.....it sounds so simple right? And maybe silly some from where you are sitting, but for me profo

It sounds dramatic, but it is true, and has been my experience......since 2018, and perhaps most of my life I have been in a spiritual and emotional bootcamp of sorts.....and the last couple years being the most intense.....forcing me to look at the parts of myself that had been on autopilot, and contributing to some of the pain I have endured.....and challenged to CHANGE it......finally.......once and for all, and close a loop that doesn't serve me and my life and my growth.

I had written a little while back about realizing the parts of myself that are in tension with one another.....a part of me that has always yearned for family and normalcy....whatever that means right;-) But the creation of a home......the tradition of a family......a mom and a dad, couple of kids.....days spent cooking dinner.....playing in the yard, eating on the deck....planning a family vacation......all of it.....and then it was gone.....and I had to rebuild the parts th

I am deep diving in the magic of the connections we make, and how they lead us to the places we are supposed to be......if I had any doubt that that was a thing, and THE thing, I have NONE now.....I speak often about the fact that at any given moment you are standing RIGHT where you are supposed to be....no need to overthink or wonder.....because there you are:) RIGHT on time.......especially if you can face your own stuff and get out yo way;-) This week I took the kids, and

At any given point we navigate life with whatever depth of understanding finds us......and at some points in our lives it is a lot.....sometimes less.....but it is all important.....leading us to where we are supposed to be.....And for me at the moment I feel like I am in a place where so much of so much makes sense......finally.....the seasons I walked through, the times I was challenged.......the times I was called more deeply into myself.....discovering what was within....

In the beginning of my divorce journey I was given a choice.....I was in blinding pain and suffering......wondering often, if I would make it.....the emotional pain taking my breath away.....and I was faced with the choice of how I was going to show up in this story.....was I choosing to take the high road, or sinking into the land of pettiness and ugliness....and as I sit here today choosing to take the high road......and not succumb to the storm at the time was the way.....

Being a female is tough in lots of ways.....I could likely write a whole blog about it lol:) But one of the toughest things is combatting "mean girls"......or more importantly "mean girl energy".......because the truth is most girls, or women that run around spreading mean girl energy, aren't mean at all......they are insecure......they feel powerless.......they are scared.......they are sad.......they feel____________so many things, and the way to regain their power is to ma

Before I discovered that my ex had been cheating, if you had asked me if I would have tolerated that, or taken him back, the answer would have been no......I had already lived that story in a previous relationship......and in my mind that was a no.....but then.....it happened.....and I had a 4 year old.....a 13 year old son with special needs, and the love of my husband......and the love of the idea of our family succeeding......so there it was staring me in the face......thi

Every day my journey requires me to grieve people that are alive.....and I mean from a human standpoint, I am glad they are alive......completely.....but sometimes our journeys require us to watch a person we cared about at one point "die" for all intents and purposes, except for actual death.......metaphoric death if you will.....and I have had that happen in a big way 3 times in my life......having to navigate the grief of grieving a person that is alive......and it has bee

Today is my last day of work till next Monday! My schedule is different than my kiddos this year.....I had originally hoped we would be headed to Myrtle Beach next week......some sand and sun feeling as if it was in order due to the Arctic Tundra we just lived through ;-) BUT my girl had a call in her soul to do Girls on the Run at her school, and can't miss practice....she is also in a play tonight, and tomorrow and then is beginning Girls on the Run next week.....so we stay

I met with a client last night, she and I having similar journeys......and I suppose for myself what occurs to me over and over is the realization that I have never had a healthy romantic partnership........healthy parts of it yes......time periods perhaps.......but for sure not healthy....and realizing that more and more is clarifying.......but also a little heartbreaking......if I am honest......having such a skewed perspective at one point that it clouded every move I made

No action or story is an island.......nobody's.......and the lives we live are impacting all of the lives around us every day......whether we want them to be or not, or maybe think they are or not.....and it is all starting to make such sense to me, and clarity is arriving at a deeper level for me about so much.....I had my daughter when I was 40......and right before she turned 5 her dad left, and the first two years of her life were lovely.....her dad and I adored her from

I remember writing about this awhile back, and today finds me feeling a shift about it all......but still marveling......we make our way in this life, and travel with people that resonate in our story, and then we travel with them for exactly as long as is needed to get to the next point......and sometimes people stay in our peripheral forever:) I love when that happens.....I have friends..... still........ that have remained for decades of my life.....and they are treasures.

I am hoping today's blog reaches somebody that needs to hear it.....so aging is a part of life, no doubt.....but FEELING old......that is optional......the way we feel in our body reflects the decisions we make.....and I can only write this blog because I have lived in both places.....during middle age......at the end of my marriage, I felt so beaten down that the aging process was accelerating.....and I was stepping fully into the "old lady" suit.....thinking this is what it

I have been a deep dive lately into really thinking on my journey, and where I am right now.....and just feeling absolutely blown away by all of the pieces that fell into the last almost 50 years, that led me right here.......particularly the last 5 or so......like so many subtle and not subtle shifts, that carried this new story into existence for me.....my ex leaving on that fateful night in early January of 2021, and the word fateful just hit a little different this mornin

Yesterday was such an exciting day.......The equinox.......Creating balance.......literally in our natural world, and in my case it touched down in a part of my own story that allowed for the final pieces to fall into place for my workshops! Creating balance between my teacher and coach self.........Feeling as if the powers that be have rolled out the red carpet for me, and FEELING so completely, the divinity and alignment, and movement as I made the intuitive moves I was gi

My 50th birthday is coming in hot........I have mentioned that I will be 50 in May.....and I wasn't sure how I wanted to celebrate........my parents asking me if I wanted a party.....not sure if a surprise would be something I wanted......and we batted some ideas around and options.....one of them being at a place in our area, and having it be expensive per head etc......and it is a good amount of people.....and that just seemed, like a waste.....and totally not like me......

I sometimes share my "woo woo" side in this blog lol:) I have written many times about my spirituality breaking open.......vast and wide in this chapter.....so clearly meant to be part of the tale of my life.....traditional love of God and Jesus being such a part of that......but so much more has shown up......and has felt just as divinely placed.......leaving a knowing within me that there is SO much we do not know......and that the Universe is a vast and magical place......

I was a cheerleader in high school......and in a league when I was younger, and it hit me the other day that the irony of that is not lost on me......it was sort of one of those realizations that evokes a little smirk, my realizing that cheering for others in some way or another, has been a thing all of my life.....literally in all of its forms.....and I loved cheerleading then and now.....but I have realized too, along that same understanding, that the people we expect to su