Today is my baby's birthday.....she entered my life 10 years ago.....and on that day she closed a hole I had been walking around with....when I had had her brother years before that.....he was premature, in the NICU all of it.....and while I am currently, and was mad about him then, my heart yearned for that typical birth experience......deep in my soul.....healthy baby, sharing the experience with those I loved.....all the things.....and so while I also had a c-section with

I have made no secret of my love affair with language.....it started the moment I learned to read.....an experience I vividly remember......instantly captivated by the power that words held.....and the escape that could be found in them.....and certainly everybody that knows me, knows how I feel about communication in all of its forms......in some ways my never feeling fully satiated.....which sounds weird right? Like don't you get talked out, or communicated out Jenn? And t

The longer I travel, the more fascinated I become by humans and our human condition.....I was thinking about all the connections I have made in my life.....a point of deep resonation with somebody.....and then it has either stayed in my life, or moved on.....and watching my daughter reconnect with a great friend yesterday and have a blast was great to see.....she had so much fun! Like they never skipped a beat.....And she and this friend were vibing from the same places.....a

I did a part two video on this yesterday.....I often have people share their secrets with me....and I think one of the reasons for that is that I do not gossip about them....or share any of it.....their secret settling in, and safe with me.....but also it is because I do not judge.....I have said it before, the only thing I do judge is mean spirited stuff, or a lack of kindness.....that one is tough....but I am trying:) But the day to day mess that finds people's lives, and m

My daughter is doing a program at school called Girls on the Run.....I have heard of it before, and it is very much in line with my philosophy heading into my empowerment workshops in the spring! So I am feeling like it may be a part of the puzzle somehow.....the timing feeling like it is important.....and timely.....But we did have to cancel our spring break trip to make it happen.....the practices being important......and she is also in a play, and the overlap would have ca

My odyssey has taken me to so many corners of myself.......the core of who I am, my spirit and what resonates within.....learning to shed some stories that are not mine......or no longer mine......and I have many more to go......but one of the places I have deeply examined is the power of love, in all of its forms......and so I felt on Valentine's Day, writing some about it would be fun, apropos if you will;-) Yesterday love looked like my forgetting the lollipops my girl wan

This morning finds me feeling better....yesterday feeling like a pressure cooker......all the things that were pulling at me, dissipated into their resolution and solution by last night, and worked better than I had originally anticipated:).......I also got to release the valve with a friend......tears finding me some, long overdue;-) So this morning finds me happy that it is Friday! A three day weekend to boot.....but the other day I mentioned this podcast I listened to tha

The word haunt is kinda cool, as a random, nerdy word gal aside;-) But there have been periods of this journey I have been called to walk that feel haunted.....haunted by the past, ghosts of people past and their actions, and what I believed to be true.....all of it shattered so exquisitely on repeat......and I heard a simple thing on the radio that hit yesterday, when I was driving home.....the scars we have that are not visible are the hardest to heal.....and well.....I ha

I have been writing about the energy in the world being deeply felt by me at the moment.....the heaviness a little crushing......however yesterday I had two places where respite was found, and it resonated in my mind so completely.......and in the most profound and beautiful way......one was a podcast.....speaking about how to contend with the energy afoot....and speaking about our spirit.....the soul that lives in all of us....and the one that often goes ignored.....and when

I think maybe everybody hits this place, in their middle age, where they care less about stuff that plagued them in their younger years.....choosing freedom from other's opinions and perceptions, and living freer as themselves.....and that is an amazing place to be in....but it still is never easy.....and I have had to DECIDE many times.....that "you don't get to"....to rattle my peace......to steal my joy......to fill in the blank.....and the initial jangle is always the thi

The world at large is highly inflamed at the moment.....and as that energy comes on a global scale, and on the world's stage.....it is a contagious energy that seeps into other places.....and into our own world........and that is challenging.....because I have said it many times.....ENERGY IS CONTAGIOUS......in all of its forms.....and social media has become this tide of energy, finding its way into all of our lives......and I think as things continue to heat up, it is impor

It seems that when things get a little heavier and darker, it is then immediately balanced by light.....and last night was definitely in line with that! Like a ray of sunshine coming amid the frigid temps and stress as of late.....the Gala was at Skytop Lodge, which I had never been to. And it is outrageously gorgeous and magical.....and we had so much fun.....and watching my friend Jeannemarie give the speech about her dream project was a beautiful thing to behold.....her vi

So much swirling as of late.......and this blog is my way to unearth the layers.....like an onion......peeling back the things that are being asked to be looked at.....and if you are watching the world, you might feel like there are so many layers afoot at the moment.....and they coined last year, saying it is the year of the snake......the shedding of our skin.....and starting February 17th at the mark of the lunar new year.....the energy will shift into the year of the fire

I have become patient with the process in these last 5 years.....knowing so clearly now that pushing against resistance is futile......in every way.....and just leaning in, and trusting is better......SURRENDERING on repeat.....and when suffering arrives, I know I am hanging on too tightly to outcomes, and need to loosen my grip.....focusing on my own actions.....my own journey, all of it......sometimes it feels easier than other times.....but it is always worth it.....so thi

As I have journeyed I have not identified with a "broken" person.....not a victim....and that is still true as I sit here this morning, and articulate what is on my heart as I sip my coffee.......and my journey will forever be about healing, and evolution, and alchemizing each and every wound on repeat.....and fiercely protecting my peace and joy.....However........having said all of that.....I think the weight of all I have carried in this life just caught up some to me?? L

My daughter and I are CLOSE......when I had another baby, and she arrived, I could not imagine at the time being as close to anybody as I was to my boy....my boy and I having climbed mountains together.....both medically and otherwise......and then there she was.....and she was a deliciously delightful baby.....and toddler, and we were head over heels.....and then her dad left......when she was 4........ and up until that point she and I were super close, but she was definite

February is here......it is touted as being a legendary month in this year's calendar energetically.....we shall see;-).....but for me, I was grateful to welcome it......January was another intense one.....and so here I am.....and the end of this week holds some question marks....it may end for me in a dating event AND a Gala:)......I am following the signs.....the dating event seems like my door for sure, and I look forward to checking it out:) Word is there are a lot of men

Yesterday I hit a wall.....the weight of carrying all I have been feeling too big....and the weight of the sadness, and the division in the world sitting on my heart......I headed to church with my kids to help ease it.....and it did some....the sermon always right on time.......but I was just SO deeply affected yesterday.....my heart just not having the capacity to hold so much of what has been going on as of late, in every direction.....wondering why people being kind is so

I have known in a deep way that my life, myself, my path is different than so many people I know......never getting the standard package.....whatever that meant to me as a kid....and maybe now as a grown woman, the soccer mom package lol:) That has not been my lot....and I do not mock that path, at all, that isn't what the lol is.....it is just an awareness that that has not been my experience in the world.....my life has been tough, and maybe saying that and acknowledging it

This week has been exhausting.....in all the ways.....school being on an off schedule, the weather being oppressive, my having an annoying and cruddy little cold, and my needing to face things that needed to get solved despite that being wildly uncomfortable.....and I will never understand some of what I experience in my journey, but I believe so fully, that if you are showing up from a good place.....speaking your heart in the places where you need to, with dignity and grac