It still bothers me when my kids are not with me on the weekend some, it never feels quite right.....but it is a truth of THIS life that I have had to learn to accept.....and I have.......and so every once in awhile it lines up, and I get to have a bliss day that manifests.....and it just feels magnificent.....like just what I need kinda energy......and the timing is always so good.....and yesterday was THAT day.....the warmer temps helped too, getting my mindset right there.

I have spent my life loving other people more than I love myself....and as the realization seeks deeper and deeper, I see more and more places where that was true......and another thing I have been reading about, and sorta letting sink in......is inequality in terms of output and input.....that has been very out of balance, often in my life.....over giving, and feeling starving on the other side......and it has been that way all of my life, for as long as I can remember......

I came across something last night that resonated.....I am following this new woman some, and her stuff hits like an arrow to my soul.......I am guessing our walk has been similar.....and she was doing a truth bomb reel.....and she was remarking on how it might make people feel some kind of way or upset them, angering them......but that was not my experience......because I fully own some of what I have gone through.......I am not a victim......I have written that many times..

I am a fairly logical human......all rational and stuff ;-)........not subject to dramatics....often;-) steady and calm most of the time.....and one piece of logic that has absolutely mystified me......and taken me nearly all of this half of a century to learn.....is the fact that you cannot MAKE somebody see your value.......no matter how valuable you are.....and I have had a lot of trouble in this life really understanding that......thinking if I "turned up" my value when I

As I work with more clients and evolve in coaching, I am increasingly struck by the good meaning folks in everybody's lives......my clients sharing that somebody told them___________and that they should get over ____________and do this____________. And much of what lives in those blanks is well meaning stuff, I think.....but normally to the person it is expressed to, it feels devoid of compassion or empathy.....like completely.....and maybe it isn't so well meaning......maybe

I have written about the power of exercise many times along my journey....and this morning I am going to expound upon it a bit:)......I am helping a friend through a tough break up....and my advice when we chatted yesterday was to start to walk, every day......MOVING our body holds great power.....we were never meant to be THIS sedentary.....ever.....we are animals after all lol:) And our jobs have rooted us in sitting! And trying to combat it, is not easy.....I myself spend

Forged in fire...........Forge is a funny word.....can mean something that is fake.....or it can mean something that has been heated in fire, to shape into something that you want it to be....by hammering and beating on it lol:) And sometimes that is how my journey has felt.....and I had a huge aha rabbit hole come and find me last night, that brought more clarity and understanding to my doorstep......in a way that helps me understand ALL of it better.....I have had a challe

I would say that this winter has been one of the toughest on me financially......that bitter cold making heating this big house even harder than normal, heating season is the time where one income for me feels squeezy, and well we know this winter has been crazy.....and with the cost of everything else continuing to rise, well yikes, and it seems as quickly as I can make money and hustle it goes.....and I am certain I am not unique in that......preaching to the choir so to sp

I have learned that I am a hoarder of sentiment.....having such trouble parting with things that hold sentimental meaning.......There is a bin in my basement that holds a ton of greeting cards.......a HUGE bin.......from christenings, graduations, birthdays......all of it......and some of them hold the meaning of having had the person who gave it to us no longer with us......and I never know what to do with all of it.....but I have so many corners like that in my life......an

The weight of all of the lies I have been told sometimes circles round in a strange way....a flash or an awareness......or a memory......or .................and the weight of them is heavy sometimes....and so mind blowing ........and maybe it is being highlighted today amid the deep deception found in the world at the moment......and I wonder about the people who compulsively lie......mostly how it feels on their end.......I guess my life coach having her say.......curious ab

Today is my baby's birthday.....she entered my life 10 years ago.....and on that day she closed a hole I had been walking around with....when I had had her brother years before that.....he was premature, in the NICU all of it.....and while I am currently, and was mad about him then, my heart yearned for that typical birth experience......deep in my soul.....healthy baby, sharing the experience with those I loved.....all the things.....and so while I also had a c-section with

I have made no secret of my love affair with language.....it started the moment I learned to read.....an experience I vividly remember......instantly captivated by the power that words held.....and the escape that could be found in them.....and certainly everybody that knows me, knows how I feel about communication in all of its forms......in some ways my never feeling fully satiated.....which sounds weird right? Like don't you get talked out, or communicated out Jenn? And t

The longer I travel, the more fascinated I become by humans and our human condition.....I was thinking about all the connections I have made in my life.....a point of deep resonation with somebody.....and then it has either stayed in my life, or moved on.....and watching my daughter reconnect with a great friend yesterday and have a blast was great to see.....she had so much fun! Like they never skipped a beat.....And she and this friend were vibing from the same places.....a

I did a part two video on this yesterday.....I often have people share their secrets with me....and I think one of the reasons for that is that I do not gossip about them....or share any of it.....their secret settling in, and safe with me.....but also it is because I do not judge.....I have said it before, the only thing I do judge is mean spirited stuff, or a lack of kindness.....that one is tough....but I am trying:) But the day to day mess that finds people's lives, and m

My daughter is doing a program at school called Girls on the Run.....I have heard of it before, and it is very much in line with my philosophy heading into my empowerment workshops in the spring! So I am feeling like it may be a part of the puzzle somehow.....the timing feeling like it is important.....and timely.....But we did have to cancel our spring break trip to make it happen.....the practices being important......and she is also in a play, and the overlap would have ca

My odyssey has taken me to so many corners of myself.......the core of who I am, my spirit and what resonates within.....learning to shed some stories that are not mine......or no longer mine......and I have many more to go......but one of the places I have deeply examined is the power of love, in all of its forms......and so I felt on Valentine's Day, writing some about it would be fun, apropos if you will;-) Yesterday love looked like my forgetting the lollipops my girl wan

This morning finds me feeling better....yesterday feeling like a pressure cooker......all the things that were pulling at me, dissipated into their resolution and solution by last night, and worked better than I had originally anticipated:).......I also got to release the valve with a friend......tears finding me some, long overdue;-) So this morning finds me happy that it is Friday! A three day weekend to boot.....but the other day I mentioned this podcast I listened to tha

The word haunt is kinda cool, as a random, nerdy word gal aside;-) But there have been periods of this journey I have been called to walk that feel haunted.....haunted by the past, ghosts of people past and their actions, and what I believed to be true.....all of it shattered so exquisitely on repeat......and I heard a simple thing on the radio that hit yesterday, when I was driving home.....the scars we have that are not visible are the hardest to heal.....and well.....I ha

I have been writing about the energy in the world being deeply felt by me at the moment.....the heaviness a little crushing......however yesterday I had two places where respite was found, and it resonated in my mind so completely.......and in the most profound and beautiful way......one was a podcast.....speaking about how to contend with the energy afoot....and speaking about our spirit.....the soul that lives in all of us....and the one that often goes ignored.....and when

I think maybe everybody hits this place, in their middle age, where they care less about stuff that plagued them in their younger years.....choosing freedom from other's opinions and perceptions, and living freer as themselves.....and that is an amazing place to be in....but it still is never easy.....and I have had to DECIDE many times.....that "you don't get to"....to rattle my peace......to steal my joy......to fill in the blank.....and the initial jangle is always the thi