Since I began this journey I have created some analogies to attempt to explain the senseless things I have encountered, and make better sense of them, to the best of my ability.......and one of them that makes sense so completely to me, is that I have placed all the grief I have accumulated in this life, inside of a "whale" that lives within me......and the whale swims peacefully within me most of the time......coexisting with me, and holding all that pain and grief for me, s

So I think as we get older, getting to do things that are our "firsts" is kind of a fun thing......maybe becoming more important than ever, and experiencing the world in a new way......and we all get into our comfort zones in our older age, and being intentional about trying new things, or having new experiences is everything I think:) And I have long loved getting a massage.....a simple but yet such a profound pleasure......and my Taurus is drawn to beautiful things, luxurio

This came up three times in the last couple of days, and it seemed like something to take notice of......I had some conversations about the end of relationships in people's lives.....through talking to a client and some friends......and I am learning that MOST relationships are finite......having an expiration date......even though when we are in it, it doesn't seem that way......and if you are open and honest, and inclined to do so, you share with your friends, and your peop

There is an epidemic of people hurting other people, lying, deceiving, betraying and then painting the person they did all that to, as their "crazy" ex.......and I see it so often in the lives that I walk in......and in the women I coach, and I have seen and felt it in my own life.....being villainized in the aftermath of the heinous stuff that happened to me......and for me it holds no bearing, or weight, not anymore.....when people do things that are really horrid, they are

I had written about the fact that I REALLY wanted to head out west for my big birthday this year.....this summer with my kiddos.......but it is a big thing to pull off, and I am not totally certain it will work this year, and may be better suited for spring break next year.......but having said that I am still remaining open to the way appearing:) However I may get out west anyway this summer, or more than once! ;-)Having it come calling again......my friend, one I have had f

My 50th birthday will be here soon:).......the beginning of May.....and I often marvel at what that birthday would have FELT like had my life continued the way it had been going......I was aging at a rapid rate, and feeling every bit of it......EVERY bit of it......and the aging process is a curious one.....it continues on for sure;-) but there is SO much we can do to change the experience of it.....truly.....and this morning that feels powerful......and I most definitely shu

Today is International Women's Day today.....and it is hitting a little harder today as I think of so much.....Gosh the world is spinning in all that can happen if you are female, horrifying doesn't even begin to touch it.....and the challenges are endless....exploitation and beyond.......but beyond all of that, and there is so much.......this chapter, more than any of the other chapters, has shown me the power that lies in women......just the fierce and massive power.......t

I have been even more keenly aware of perspective lately.....and it feels at times that it is a double edged dance between thinking we can say something that shifts a perspective, or just letting it be......and maybe I am even more aware of that because I am in the business, quite literally, of working to do that often, either through teaching or coaching......that is my job......to impart understanding either in a literal sense, or in a personal development sense.....and our

The walk I have been walking has absolutely been a walk of faith......among the rest.......but faith being the cornerstone of it all.....the thing I turn to often to endure......and sometimes I marvel these days at the strength that is found in that faith......rarely wavering......a muscle I have worked tirelessly these last 5 years, finding myself often just LEANING IN.......when a challenge arrives I just lean into the things I cannot see, KNOWING that they are RIGHT there.

Myself and my children have been given the greatest gift you can be given in this life, and she brought it to light the other day. She was talking to me the other day about some things, and observations she has made.....and I won't get into the specifics of it to protect her thoughts and understanding of some things in the peripheral of her life......but suffice to say it led to the awareness again of the enormous gift we have all been given, myself and my children.....and t

I have learned that every part of our life comes down to ONE decision.......ONE decision that either moves us forward or holds up back.......and sometimes these decisions present in our daily experience or in our long term one......yesterday I taught from home, and did not get my workout done in the morning......getting everybody set up......and I thought it might be better to do it at the end of the day after sitting all day anyway....but I also knew that is my least success

I think one of the weirdest parts of this journey has been my meeting the man of the house via myself lol:) BECOMING the man of my house so fully.....and stepping into that role, lots of times when I don't wanna ;-) This past weekend I met her again, I was snow blowing a path for my new oil peeps......if you remember, and if you have been reading for a minute, then you know that I had some challenges with my last company, and their informing me of needing that to be done in a

I think when relationships end we tend to think of the "what went wrong" piece......and that is human nature......and I suppose if self awareness finds you in this life, you will own your role in it all.....but often times that hasn't been the case in my experience......and for me, when I think of my marriage, there were layers of things that went awry......and in hindsight I do not think there was much I could have done to change the outcome.....it being shown that he and I

It still bothers me when my kids are not with me on the weekend some, it never feels quite right.....but it is a truth of THIS life that I have had to learn to accept.....and I have.......and so every once in awhile it lines up, and I get to have a bliss day that manifests.....and it just feels magnificent.....like just what I need kinda energy......and the timing is always so good.....and yesterday was THAT day.....the warmer temps helped too, getting my mindset right there.

I have spent my life loving other people more than I love myself....and as the realization seeks deeper and deeper, I see more and more places where that was true......and another thing I have been reading about, and sorta letting sink in......is inequality in terms of output and input.....that has been very out of balance, often in my life.....over giving, and feeling starving on the other side......and it has been that way all of my life, for as long as I can remember......

I came across something last night that resonated.....I am following this new woman some, and her stuff hits like an arrow to my soul.......I am guessing our walk has been similar.....and she was doing a truth bomb reel.....and she was remarking on how it might make people feel some kind of way or upset them, angering them......but that was not my experience......because I fully own some of what I have gone through.......I am not a victim......I have written that many times..

I am a fairly logical human......all rational and stuff ;-)........not subject to dramatics....often;-) steady and calm most of the time.....and one piece of logic that has absolutely mystified me......and taken me nearly all of this half of a century to learn.....is the fact that you cannot MAKE somebody see your value.......no matter how valuable you are.....and I have had a lot of trouble in this life really understanding that......thinking if I "turned up" my value when I

As I work with more clients and evolve in coaching, I am increasingly struck by the good meaning folks in everybody's lives......my clients sharing that somebody told them___________and that they should get over ____________and do this____________. And much of what lives in those blanks is well meaning stuff, I think.....but normally to the person it is expressed to, it feels devoid of compassion or empathy.....like completely.....and maybe it isn't so well meaning......maybe

I have written about the power of exercise many times along my journey....and this morning I am going to expound upon it a bit:)......I am helping a friend through a tough break up....and my advice when we chatted yesterday was to start to walk, every day......MOVING our body holds great power.....we were never meant to be THIS sedentary.....ever.....we are animals after all lol:) And our jobs have rooted us in sitting! And trying to combat it, is not easy.....I myself spend

Forged in fire...........Forge is a funny word.....can mean something that is fake.....or it can mean something that has been heated in fire, to shape into something that you want it to be....by hammering and beating on it lol:) And sometimes that is how my journey has felt.....and I had a huge aha rabbit hole come and find me last night, that brought more clarity and understanding to my doorstep......in a way that helps me understand ALL of it better.....I have had a challe