What makes a person trustworthy??.....I am not sure anymore.....I used to think it was actions aligned with words....and I was proven that even deception can live there too....or the amount of time you spend with a person, to see their actions stack up......and I find it strange with all I have been through in terms of lying and betrayal, that I am not fearful of trusting folks.....knowing now that my intuition has joined the party, and will alert me when things go sideways..

I recently was given a book to read that had been written about my former principal......he was a lovely man....a good human, deep into the crevices of his soul.....and in reading it I have been remembering him.....thinking of his time at my school......and I really liked him so much.......and was such a big fan, when I see his face in my mind's eye it is of him grinning......and in remembering him I remembered a student I had had all those years ago.....she was a great stude

We walk through this life with our "stuff" in tow.....my stuff is not the same as your stuff....but we most definitely ALL have our stuff.....and my "stuff" has been surrounding romantic relationships most of my life....and as I have been deep diving into my patterns and challenges surrounding that topic this past year.....digging into all of it even deeper, and realizing how deeply I have dove into all of it, as the year nearly wraps up, can you believe that?? Fastest year o

I wrote yesterday about realizing some more about how my energy has shifted, as I see people respond to my energy these days.....and energy is SO important.....it is in part how I live my life now.....FEELING my way through it all....both through people and in other ways....realizing that energy is really all there is.....the frequencies of our bodies dictating our health, and the frequencies around us dictating the quality of our life......and I suppose at one point in time

There is a wild piece of my life that has taken over....and it is likely only felt by me, maybe lol:)..... and I do not mean that I am wild in my behavior lol:) But there is a deep lack of "domestication" that I live in despite doing my domestic duties, if that makes sense.....I do those things for my children and myself....but I am still wildly free on any given day.....Making decisions about the how and when and if at all.....But there is a wildness that feels as if it has

I feel like the word "healing" is a buzz word these days....and as I got up this morning I was thinking that perhaps healing is needed more than ever in this world....and I certainly know a circle of healers in this area......and everybody is grinding and hustling and doing their thing....and trying to help other humans heal from the things that have wounded them! Changing the world one heart, one soul, one action at a time.......And I have written about my healing journey ev

As I close doors on the past, and heal from what has found me, stepping into my new era, so much is becoming so clear to me......and it occurred to me the other day that ironically the three big loves of my life, to this point........ have been with the SAME man.....even though each time I thought they were not the same at all....and if I showed you pictures....or gave you characteristics, they were really vastly different in all the ways......except they all had an inherent

Morning! :) I have danced on this notion, but this morning I am going ALL in.....there are NO mistakes.....there is said it lol:) I believe in free will, and we can live different versions of our stories based on those things.....but I truly believe that EVERY moment.....EVERY big thing, EVERY small thing is part of that divine dance.....and the better we get at LISTENING.....like REALLY listening to our intuition, the better the journey becomes.....but even the low level stu

When you spend a portion of your life in chaos or conflict that FEELS normal....and when it crops up it doesn't set off alarm bells, because it is what you are used to.....but when you finally reside in peace and calm.....creating a place where your nervous system can finally rest, you become particularly sensitive to chaos.....and what once was attractive is no longer....As I have been healing, and taking the time to do the work of healing, which by the way is SO much.....li

There is a list of folks in this life that have betrayed or wronged me pretty significantly....in different ways, and for different reasons, reasons I may never fully understand.....and there is a camp of folks that think I should still hold that fire and venom for them.....and that sort of thing doesn't live within me.....it just doesn't......no vengeance, no payback, no retribution.....just a walk on, and not giving access to my peace any longer....and I am getting better a

I had the most amazing weekend, creating coziness, and warmth for my kids and I....and for our guests this holiday season:) And part of it was to sort of balance the feeling of disgust that has been bubbling up as of late......it is a heavy emotion, and unpleasant, but I think very necessary all things considered....I am not dwelling in that place, but I am acknowledging the FEELING of it.....the way it feels to finally fully understand the places where I gave my power away..

I mentioned that I was going all in on decorating for Christmas yesterday, and my daughter and I did a ton, but there is still a lot to do today........ We have a tree in every room so;-) And we added our kitchen trees to the mix this year! I was lucky to already have a tree that was given to me ages ago, that is super tall and finally has a home amid the high ceilings.....and is PERFECT! I picked up two little trees to go up above in my kitchen.....I spent more than I wanted

You know the Shania Twain song, when she says "Let's go Girls!" and people joke about it making them want to kick doors down.....well that is sorta where I am right now lol:) I am planning on going into 2026 like I kicked the door down to get there.....Feeling so much fiery energy to propel me into all of it! I want to up my fitness again, and have been researching the way, I have some house goals, and more goals for travel with my kids and I, and my women's empowerment stuf

Morning:)........I consider myself to be reformed......a reformed people pleaser, and control freak......having the weight of others spinning in my orbit, and trying to control every piece of my life.....thinking that somehow if I did that, everything was going to be alright....and as I type that, it occurs to me that the divine showed up, so many times to break that open....to show me so fully that I am not in control of so much of my life, despite feeling otherwise...and to

Dear Me, This apology is long overdue......I think of us often back down the road, and feel like going back there and wrapping my arms around you.....because that is what you needed....from somebody....and at the time in your marriage.....but there was no comfort to be found. Just conflict, struggle, strife, and eventual devastation.....and I know you didn't want to be the one responsible for the downfall of your family......so you stayed, and fought, even when that vo

I have written about my deep disdain for the current dating structure....it is made for people that want to hook up, and have casual encounters, and do that on repeat.....that is NOT me....and the entire system lacks the part where people connect, and that is IN person.....so recently a co worker's husband has a fella at work, one she can vouch for, that I may go on a blind date with soon, she said he is a great guy, so I am in the investigation phase currently lol:)......and

Anytime I see the term "coparent" I marvel at what that would be like....And maybe as this Mercury Retrograde is taking hold this month, it will take me on an Odyssey of the past....that is part of its energy.....so if you find yourself drifting to the past, you are not crazy lol:) And perhaps there is something back there you need to look at again...and that vibe certainly feels like it is in the air....I spend a lot of time focusing on my goals, and my own lane.....not look

Loyalty is a wound inside of me.......the lack of it that I have experienced in this life....and realizing that loyalty.....the REAL kind is perhaps one of the rarest things....and it is something I do my best to embody as often as I am able.....I am everybody's secret keeper.....the one they go to when they don't want their business spread around....knowing that their secret is safe with me.....I am the one that shows up as often as I can for my friends and family...supporti

The older I get the more important it is for me to be right where I belong......and with the people that I belong around......and as I travel I am shown where that is.....and I trust the unfolding completely.....knowing I am led to those people now, and grateful for the people who have stayed in my orbit after my divorce.....the ones that could not only withstand but also embrace the evolution of my spirit.....and I am currently sitting in a lake house typing this.....about t

In the wake of my divorce the grief of losing my family of four nearly swallowed me whole....like ALL consuming, and hurt like hell......because all I wanted my whole life was to have a family......that was it......the only thing that I put on my radar as a MUST, the rest was all gravy.....and when I had achieved that.....a husband, a son, a daughter.....well what else is there....and so to watch it be destroyed was excruciating.....however there was a plan:) One beyond my vi