Christmas Eve is my favorite.....maybe more than Christmas Day.....magic filling the air....the feeling palpable....and I often think about all the traditions I walked through in my lifetime....and that undeniable piece, where we do not know when it is the last time....the last time we share a tradition with a group of people....and mostly that makes me think of my grandparents.....trying to remember when the last time they came to my parent's house for Christmas Eve was, and

My story houses another woman......the one my ex husband ended up leaving for....and 5 years later there are so many takeaways from living that experience.....I do not hold her responsible or give her credit for the things she forced me to learn and see, or the growth that has found me as a result of all I went through.....but she most definitely was a catalyst of change in my life......initially sparking my primal fight for MY family......for MY husband....and igniting that

On January 7th of 2026, it will mark the 5 year anniversary of my being a resident in my new life.....and as I have said there is so much of it I have really enjoyed.......new adventures...new paths....a fresh new perspective in every part of my life.....renewed health....spirit......peace......joy.....love.......all of it.......like a magic carpet ride I never asked to ride:)......but as 5 years approaches, there is some grief......grief in the acceptance of living the last

So I have written so often about the power that resides in our minds.....but last night I proved that even more deeply.....I have been ducking and dodging some germs at my school....yikes....they have been everywhere for weeks....and I was relieved to see the end in sight, and meet Christmas break Friday....but then some crud caught up to me yesterday.....ugh right?? Christmas right around the corner, lots to do.....all of it.....so I began to up all my natural remedies....my

There is a situation in my life that for all intents and purposes looks like I should explore it more.....but it feels like a clear no for me in my gut, and I have acted on that no some, but I have this place in me, where my intuition speaks......correctly....and clearly...often, and then I talk myself out of it lol:) And I guess why I am writing it about it this time, is because I am planning on following the no this time..... for the first time....not pushing past my intuit

I have been privileged to call many children MY children.....or my kids, as we like to call them at school:)......obviously my own kids are my absolute heart.....and being blessed with them, and the feeling it gives me, is hard to articulate....in every way.....when I think of all I have walked through the last 5 years, and all of it......none of it makes any sense without them in my story.....we have the most fun together....and when the three of us are together there is an

I have started to view the world in terms of doors:)....and entering into them if they are mine, and missing them if they are not.....and the feeling I get when I know they are not, or the door misses.....never arrives.....THAT feeling is the one. The one that beckons to me now....and I was talking to my daughter about it yesterday.....she tried out for a play....and she really hopes she gets the part....and I do too! However I told her that her inclination to try was her doo

Today I am tackling a sensitive topic......one that we don't talk about enough.....and one that gets minimized, however I believe it is just as harmful as physical abuse, in nearly every way.....I am grateful to have never experienced physical abuse in my life.....that is a blessing never lost on me, considering some of the places I have been......however I have experienced verbal and emotional abuse......and it leaves its mark.....and it is what I have been overcoming in rec

If you have read for awhile, you will know that 2025 was a year where I had to face and really what feels, waged my final battle with self worth.....having learned SO completely...that I needed to remove myself from a situation, one where my heart was all up in it, to save my self worth, and my self, and truly learn to stand in my power for the first time in that way....and it was painful....and challenging....but on the other side magic:)....and here is a huge aha that came

The timing of life is divine.....no doubt for me......and I believe so deeply now, that it has become the rhythm of my life.....I have no worries in a real sense anymore....free to let go and trust and watch the divine work its magic.....knowing with such certainty that the way is unfolding every single day....not being able to be missed, even if I tried:) My faith leading the way....with trust in tow.....and this weekend was another example.....I had hoped to do breakfast wi

I am humbled often by the blessings that find my life so often.....raining down, and it is what helps my faith keep growing stronger and stronger and trusting the journey so fully.....defaulting to the belief that everything is working out for me, and well.....it is:) And in addition to the hot water heater acting up this week, and it being really nothing.....and other crazy challenges, I had to get my car inspected yesterday....and I was bracing myself....but keeping the fai

There is a whale that lives inside of me......I believe he lives in all of us....and I have written about him before....using the whale as an analogy......he carries my grief and pain.......and we coexist.......I often finding him swimming peacefully inside of me.....both of us knowing that grief cannot be extinguished, not fully anyway....it needs to be something we make peace with.....over and over again, and I see him sometimes.....metaphorically speaking of course;-).....

One of my passions in coaching is to try and TEACH somebody what I have learned the hard way lol:) Using my understanding of teaching, to believe that nearly anything can be taught.....but it isn't so easy, or straightforward when it comes to a life lesson generated wisdom and lessons.....but still I believe it can be done....it is what is wrapped up in our belief systems that unlocks the rest.....and if we can shift the landscape of our mind....like really shift it.....neuro

I have written and remarked often in this chapter about the sense of aliveness that has consumed my life in this chapter......so fully......and yesterday was exercising that so freely....we had a virtual instruction day....and I am not going to lie, it brought back lots of memories from teaching during the pandemic.....which have I mentioned was such a crazy and strange time lol:) Like what???? It was like living some surreal reality.....time and space feeling bent some, as

I spent MANY years keeping my mouth shut to keep the peace.....not standing up for myself.....letting people walk on me some.....part of it was fine....we don't have to attend every fight we are invited to.....we just don't.....laying our ego down is enlightenment, in every way:) If your ego can be manipulated easily, well so can you......so some stuff doesn't matter......but I have learned to discern where I need to make a stand.....using my voice to respond to treatment tha

Loving yourself means being brutally honest with yourself, and that is what this blog is about today, so fully......and the truth will set you free, no doubt, even if it leaves a scar in its wake, but that is the beauty of life, a tapestry of all the stories we have ever lived together, woven together with life lessons, and wisdom. And living a lie is an exhausting way to live.....maybe even more so, the one where you lie to yourself about it all.....and I know with such a qu

So Santa has been spinning in my story most of my life.....I loved the magic of what Santa brought as a kid.....aka Mom:) She was good at Christmas Magic, and my dad was down too to enjoy all of it too and play along, they both were so tuned into all of that..... and my grandparents would come on Christmas morning to watch us open our presents.....and that felt like magic.....it just so happened that it worked like that because my most of my parent's siblings lived other plac

I went to a Christmas party at my brother's house yesterday.....and it was a nice afternoon....it was nice to see everybody, and their families and the wonderful busyness that has taken over their lives......I miss my babies being babies in a way that is hard to articulate sometimes.....despite my enjoying each of our chapters so completely......And I was kind of the only one besides my other brother and his wife, in that category....with older kiddos.......and there were the

I have been way up in my feels recently in terms of gratitude.......sliding down the sunbeams of my life, and just wondering how did I GET TO live THIS life!!!!!! The contrast showing up starkly for me often, and remembering......and I think I have always been a great mother......embracing motherhood, with both arms, and going all in......my loyal Taurus shrouding my children in that loyalty and love.......but at the end of my marriage, I felt miserable.....really miserable i

I think this year has shown me, perhaps more than the rest, what is important.....it has been a year y'all lol:) I am guessing you might be feeling the same;-) And it occurred to me the other day all the places I have outgrown, so completely, and it has been on the wings of realizing that the things that live inside of me right now are not up for grabs......not even a little.....my authenticity.....my willingness to be me, and have people feel that.....that can irritate othe