I think this year has shown me, perhaps more than the rest, what is important.....it has been a year y'all lol:) I am guessing you might be feeling the same;-) And it occurred to me the other day all the places I have outgrown, so completely, and it has been on the wings of realizing that the things that live inside of me right now are not up for grabs......not even a little.....my authenticity.....my willingness to be me, and have people feel that.....that can irritate othe

I am a free spirit......in this chapter, so completely.....and I have never really understood what that meant......when I heard somebody use that term before, it conjured up imagery of a barefoot hippie dancing round at Woodstock......their eyes closed, and being in the moment ;-) But I now know that to be a FREE spirit.....your spirit really needs to be FREE.....in a literal sense.........and mine finally is......so fully.....and what it actually means is an unencumbered spi

I post about my kids often because they are my life....a giant part of my life is them, and they are one of the best parts of my life, no question.....this journey has been about a lot of things, but so much of that has had to do with them.....they are my heartbeat, and live deep within my soul.....and I have said it often, I know people are crazy about their kids, but there is a special quality that lives within the three of us, a magic that activates when it is just us.....

I tend to use humor to endure......if some serious stuff is going on, you will hear me crack a joke at some point....and the same was true as we left the ER Friday after my allergic reaction.....and my mom and daughter and I chuckled in the relief of the moment behind us;-)......but the imprint of that experience has remained over the last couple of days......particularly as I went to work yesterday.....realizing that I might not have seen my classroom again.....and feeling t

I have wondered if when a snake slithers along, and drops its skin on the ground, is it painful? Does it hurt them? I have seen this year described as "the year of the snake"...a year 9 about shedding our skin, and out with the old....in every way that can mean, to make room for a 1 year this next year.....a new start, quite literally....and while I see lots of things sometimes....that has resonated so deeply, and watching others around me I would have to say that that is tru

I went on a date yesterday! And I was proud of myself for saying yes, and getting myself out there, all things considered......and everything seemed to line up to lead me to that.....He lives a little under two hours away.....He drove here, and we met at Key Foods.....I took him to Hornbecks and Child's Park.....and we chatted and laughed pretty effortlessly.....having a level of comfort with one another that was surprising....not too many awkward moments cropping up, conside

Yesterday was a harrowing day for sure.....I have known that the fight or flight response lives within us.....and the freeze response, there were times at the end of my marriage where I felt frozen, quite literally, in the circumstance......but I have experienced it many times.....and sometimes it has been by way of something real......an emergency c-section......surgery......standing by my son's side in the NICU......my sister passing.....just so much of so much......but yes

Life is such a funny ride.....one that is a winding road......and as I have learned to let go and relax in this chapter, that surrender allows me to travel where I need to be.......or where I am led......and I am so fascinated by this latest twist.....I had written about my plan to speed date this Saturday.....finally pushing myself to get out there......I was pretty excited about it....just because of the interactive nature of it.....and because I am deeply tired of meeting

What makes a person trustworthy??.....I am not sure anymore.....I used to think it was actions aligned with words....and I was proven that even deception can live there too....or the amount of time you spend with a person, to see their actions stack up......and I find it strange with all I have been through in terms of lying and betrayal, that I am not fearful of trusting folks.....knowing now that my intuition has joined the party, and will alert me when things go sideways..

I recently was given a book to read that had been written about my former principal......he was a lovely man....a good human, deep into the crevices of his soul.....and in reading it I have been remembering him.....thinking of his time at my school......and I really liked him so much.......and was such a big fan, when I see his face in my mind's eye it is of him grinning......and in remembering him I remembered a student I had had all those years ago.....she was a great stude

We walk through this life with our "stuff" in tow.....my stuff is not the same as your stuff....but we most definitely ALL have our stuff.....and my "stuff" has been surrounding romantic relationships most of my life....and as I have been deep diving into my patterns and challenges surrounding that topic this past year.....digging into all of it even deeper, and realizing how deeply I have dove into all of it, as the year nearly wraps up, can you believe that?? Fastest year o

I wrote yesterday about realizing some more about how my energy has shifted, as I see people respond to my energy these days.....and energy is SO important.....it is in part how I live my life now.....FEELING my way through it all....both through people and in other ways....realizing that energy is really all there is.....the frequencies of our bodies dictating our health, and the frequencies around us dictating the quality of our life......and I suppose at one point in time

There is a wild piece of my life that has taken over....and it is likely only felt by me, maybe lol:)..... and I do not mean that I am wild in my behavior lol:) But there is a deep lack of "domestication" that I live in despite doing my domestic duties, if that makes sense.....I do those things for my children and myself....but I am still wildly free on any given day.....Making decisions about the how and when and if at all.....But there is a wildness that feels as if it has

I feel like the word "healing" is a buzz word these days....and as I got up this morning I was thinking that perhaps healing is needed more than ever in this world....and I certainly know a circle of healers in this area......and everybody is grinding and hustling and doing their thing....and trying to help other humans heal from the things that have wounded them! Changing the world one heart, one soul, one action at a time.......And I have written about my healing journey ev

As I close doors on the past, and heal from what has found me, stepping into my new era, so much is becoming so clear to me......and it occurred to me the other day that ironically the three big loves of my life, to this point........ have been with the SAME man.....even though each time I thought they were not the same at all....and if I showed you pictures....or gave you characteristics, they were really vastly different in all the ways......except they all had an inherent

Morning! :) I have danced on this notion, but this morning I am going ALL in.....there are NO mistakes.....there is said it lol:) I believe in free will, and we can live different versions of our stories based on those things.....but I truly believe that EVERY moment.....EVERY big thing, EVERY small thing is part of that divine dance.....and the better we get at LISTENING.....like REALLY listening to our intuition, the better the journey becomes.....but even the low level stu

When you spend a portion of your life in chaos or conflict that FEELS normal....and when it crops up it doesn't set off alarm bells, because it is what you are used to.....but when you finally reside in peace and calm.....creating a place where your nervous system can finally rest, you become particularly sensitive to chaos.....and what once was attractive is no longer....As I have been healing, and taking the time to do the work of healing, which by the way is SO much.....li

There is a list of folks in this life that have betrayed or wronged me pretty significantly....in different ways, and for different reasons, reasons I may never fully understand.....and there is a camp of folks that think I should still hold that fire and venom for them.....and that sort of thing doesn't live within me.....it just doesn't......no vengeance, no payback, no retribution.....just a walk on, and not giving access to my peace any longer....and I am getting better a

I had the most amazing weekend, creating coziness, and warmth for my kids and I....and for our guests this holiday season:) And part of it was to sort of balance the feeling of disgust that has been bubbling up as of late......it is a heavy emotion, and unpleasant, but I think very necessary all things considered....I am not dwelling in that place, but I am acknowledging the FEELING of it.....the way it feels to finally fully understand the places where I gave my power away..

I mentioned that I was going all in on decorating for Christmas yesterday, and my daughter and I did a ton, but there is still a lot to do today........ We have a tree in every room so;-) And we added our kitchen trees to the mix this year! I was lucky to already have a tree that was given to me ages ago, that is super tall and finally has a home amid the high ceilings.....and is PERFECT! I picked up two little trees to go up above in my kitchen.....I spent more than I wanted